my dream is weird

why my dream is always like that??? i hope that it would NOT happen in real life
OF COURSE, I DO NOT WISH TO but I'M certain for my consequences

Accept failure is a must..
I LOST INSPIRE
I LOST dreaM
I LOST MY CONFIDENT
I 'M USELESS
I'M STUPID
I"M BRAINLESS
I SHUT DOWN MYSELF NOT TO SOCIALIZE

DO I HAVE PROBLEM OR SOCIETY???
WHICH ONE IS THROWING THE STONE FIRST???

1 HOW LONG CAN I KNOW??
2 HOW LONG CAN I LIVE????
3 HOW LONG CAN I STAND THE PATIENCE?
4 HOW LONG CAN I BE INDEPENDENCE??
5 HOW LONG CAN I STOP CURIOUS ?
6 HOW LONG CAN I GET ANSWER ?
7 HOW LONG CAN I WAIT?

8 HOW LONG CAN I STOP SACRIFY ??
9 HOW LONG CAN I STOP BUSY LIFESTYLE??
10 HOW LONG CAN I STOP TIRED??
11 HOW LONG CAN I BE RICH ??
12 HOW LONG CAN I BE HAPPY FOR MY LIFE??
13 HOW LONG CAN I ENJOY MY LIFE??
14 HOW LONG CAN I HAVE MY OWN THING THAT I DEMAND??
15 HOW LONG CAN I STOP PROCASTINATING ??
16 HOW LONG CAN I STOP TO BE FAILURE??
17 HOW LONG CAN I WAIT ??
18 HOW LONG CAN I GET MY WISH?

19 HOW LONG IS MY JOURNEY CAN I GET MY DREAM??
20 HOW LONG CAN I STOP MY BAD HABIT
21 HOW LONG IS MY JOURNEY TO GO TO BE CARRIER WOMAN TO ACHIEVE ANYTHING IN MY LIFE??
22 HOW LONG CAN I STOP WORRYING EVERYTHING???

THERE ARE 22 QUESTIONS FOR HOW LONG...???
I 'M SO SURE FOR THE AGE OF 22 YEAR OLD GIRL FOR THIS YEAR GOING TO BE ....COULD NOT GET ANYTHING YET .....

ALL I NEED TO GET IS ANSWER
hOWEVER,

THE ANSWER IS ALWAYS DISAPPONITING
BREAK THE PROMISE FOR MYSELF TO OTHERS
HOPELESS TO DEPEND OTHERS N LOSS MY CONFIDENT TO MYSELF

I'M JUST ORDINARY PERSON . I ONLY WAN TO HEAR THAT ANSWER
LIFE IS SO SHORT...ANYTHING CAN BE HAPPEND AND UNPREDICTABLE
I'M TIRED FOR MY LIFE..my WISH ALWAYS DOES NOT COME TRUE