My feeling and resentful toward it

I 'm happy because i gain a lesson, i look foward for next semester
I'm sad because over this matter.
I'm sick now because of diarhea
I'm disappointed because i stick of fb, instead of fb
I'm relief when the determination of myself
I'm worried because i'm worried my RMP RMP, u r killing me
RMp result, i think it is worst
I know that i could not graduate
because if this
I'm anxious i choose wrong group who could not compromise, cooperate in doing sth
The end of my speech


Happy, sad, excited, disappointed, relief, anxious,worried?

my family is my courage to survive in my Uni life

The time for being separated from my family, I though i was better
Because i get much more freedom, free from family survilience
I can do anything that i want
Free frm my parent's nagging
I choose better life away from my family

When i live outside, far from family
I realise i miss my family member, but not only my dog
I was no longer king or queen for my outsider..i was king or queen of my family member
evrything i had to do myself
I learn to be independent
No one concern about me
Every friend become more outsider more than i realised
I miss my family member
WHen i was sick...my family member are concern about me
I was quite grateful...
I was quite terrible that i was doing to my parent for my past time
I request too much from my parent
I was spoilt children
I want to study hard for my parent
I am not afraid of anything
Because the outsider included your friend could not do anything
I write this because my parent's support and courage enough to give me survive on earth..that's why i should do everything whatever it take for my sake of my family
No one could beat me
my fate or god could not help me...i was defeated by my friend ..from my friend again of it
I was no longer a friend in my friend eye
i don't know they are considered my friend
i don't want to give up for my life to you
Since u all underestimate me
there is my supporting friend who think my decision is correct...
This friend i love you so much
U r always darling in my heart...<3 i miss my friend
look foward to see you
i will keep on my life

MY hell day

when i post something in facebook, i would like to say thousand apologize to the person whom i do not wish to refer on what i said.
Those who are offended by this statement. Plz change your behavior, don't treat your friend in this way....no point to pinpoint each other
My message is hidden in my heart. i would not like to tell straight to my point
I'm using the other pattern to express my pattern of my feeling
I think i watch too much series movie which is related the words..
I'm not so strong enough

I treat my friend my own sincere



I give a good treat to my friend ..and in the end this is what i get repayment...

This is not my first time to be upset and over stressful over this matter
I'm just blaming myself.. i don't give good treat to my friend
I 'm not manner person and well rounded person
I'm psycho person.
I hope you all stand my side of problem
Imagine if you were me, what you all have to do
I do not mean to break any chain of the circle of friendship
I just wish you all to treat me better
and hoping to give me a favour to do the task that i wish for
They are many types of my friend, my principal of my friend don't share the burden to you all

You are the friend that i could not share the sadness burden and joy to you all
My everything is just burden to you all
But, you give the burden to me .....

I could not accept the facts that the burden become disappointment to me

when i 'm sad, you only give some words..where is the action??
If i express, could you even bother, help me???
i'm disappointed , upset, i just try express my feeling and my emotion through the facebook
Facebook is my medium diary
I am too afraid of crying in front of person,
I almost think commit suicide
I think my life and contribution is not worth to anyone
I'm not noble person like Mahatma Ghandi
From my word written, God decide me go to hell
God take my life away..
In reality, no1 appreciate me

I'm too bad in handling EQ
In fact,I lost everything in my life..insulting my good faith and dignity, questioning of my price value of faith give me big impact whether i can go on my life. this is because my huge mistake that i make
I could not accept
I could not concentrate on my study, i get this kind treatment, betrayed
no matter how, my life still need to go on
I'm not belong to any friend , it's just normal friend
I need to put the different list, segment it to different kind of my friend.
I do not wish to trust anybody.
what kind of complaint if any problem existing, find a solution
eg: if u meet this problem in completing assignmnt, consult your friend, lecturer,instead of asking some1 help to solve for you..evry1 is not free..how could you expect somebody to solve for you
my assignment is very flexible, you have a knowledge, you contribute to it...
where you get the knowledge, there are something call mouth: Ask any1 some1 you know

God give you mouth to ask..not to quiet, instead of handling other person to handle for you
It give burden to my friend..i normally ask example on my friend did

What kind of battle to challenge my life??
.
I admit myself is a free thinker,
but somehow when my problem is existing, i do not know whom should i refer to...
I just refer to any god
Luckily i know one god , my religion :buddha , instead of the other god...HAHA
The message i read from my friend , i do not wish to reply ..
because it will make me to think again my problem arising
friend have their own life, own way
I do wish to interrupt
I admit my fault, and since from that matter, i 'm doubtful my trust to you all
I seem like not to trust to any1 to whom i concern.
I'm Happy enough to have friend to ask my problem
I do not wish to create my problem on you all

*Don't take my remarks literally

view of my story

study week n sem break for student, it will surely leave a part of rubbish
That's what student do
student won't bother,,, concentrate more on study than cleaning a house
i'm also one of them :P
I 'm better i will clean out the rubbish before semester break
After i 'm having exam. i will clean out the rubbish
At least , i 'm better off in this case

I"m humble ..AM　ｉ　in this case???
i will answer i am really humble person in the world :P
I was really shy to say that ..Haha
I 'm not smart and pretty enough
Can i indicate this is criteria of Humble???
there are many factor to justify with it
I told this my lecturer for his last day to work..i 'm a humble person..
He shoot me this sentences..a humble person will not admit him/herself is a humble
U humble show that you are bossy
sometimes the thing will not say that according to what you had said
He is psyco lecturer i had ever seen ..his type same like mr hong, my economic teacher in form 6
the worst is same hometown with me..
My friend say why all Malaccan people talk same style like u all, love to sarcastic here n there..bossy him or herself... no wonder all Malaccan people is like that
when i get along with me, you will know my level of Humble

most malaccan people have same style in teasing, talking way, joking..we share same common
I don't know to explain it's it's from observation method

once he know my name, he keep mentioning my name in tutorial and my lecturer oh gosh,
It was too stress to me..geram betul I...i really don't like him
I lost my sense of humble to instill my feeling of humble in this case...my name is more glamour than others..who ask my father give me hot name to me??? Sheena name is hot since the singer sheena easton or drama sheena is queen of jungle

Brace Or Camera???

I want to do that for a long time ago.. i want DSL camera and Brace. Due to limited resources, i have to forgone sth within 2 choices
My friend ask me why should i have braces on my teeth because your teeth is still in good condition. Tied up neatly, flat

I tell them i'm not pretty when i smile ..i was looking horrible

It's true when human have something in their hand , they won't appreciate it
They won't satisfied.. keep complaining the which is not perfect
searching new, weakness surrounding himself
I wish i could use this to my study...
It seem like does not work :P
if i could have this attitude, my result is better on since now
Haiz..talk easy, do take a lot procedure to implement
That's why their need/satisfaction is unlimited
but resources is limited

In economic, if resources is limited, then firm will maximize resources but producing a different individual to cater the need of consumer


To me , i still not satisfied...It still ignorance to me
My teeth no balanced, even flat when i see more closer infront of mirror

I am jealous, not affordable to do both at the same time

one day i will do that...
I'll pursuit my interest in photograph by owning my have DSL
I wish i could have... but under processing
Life is too short... Too many precious moment we can capture, if not, we will slightly regret
Oh ya, one statement given my friend

All girl like to make up...??? is it true statement
I'm girl, i don't really like make up... No doubt,Make up make face more prettier
Some make up is really 'horrible';..the horrible what i mean this, they are trying to cover all faces, make more extreme to yourself which apply to your face to make people has far expected ...they do really works becoming more prettiest for faces but they change more face structure, change the original , what i say here: it's not make up...it's making off the face
that what the Hong Kong movie star tell
Actor who act In 干人贱 ..forgot the name liao

My inai tatoo

my new tatooo that i did at india cultural society, which held on Utar..I wan to do it for so long, finally i did it..yeah
Love this temporary tatoo...i also wan to do my real tatoo on my leg or shoulder...either 1
I'm afraid my profesionalism image will be tarnish if i did it real tatoo
Most of the society here still discriminate tatoo group..especially elder generation or very sweet home girl...most of them do not like western culture
They prefer taiwan, very smart ,nice , seem very polite fashion which is adaptable on this culture
My parents is so cool and open minded...allow us to do tatoo..hehe

determination for new sem

i will work hard to this semester

I really　ｈａｔｅ RMP ..OMG, there is no right or wrong for the assignment
i don't even know the guideline, find someway to tackle on it
all the my worry whether i'm able to graduate or not
I lost my confident anyway for anytime

Oh gosh, i have to rush here n there
Seasoned my difficulties throughout my life
I gain my lesson all my life,
i procrastinate my time but i do really waste my time on you
i wan graduate faster ..hope that free from uni life
this is what I'm happy enough
i think need to repeat a few subject to get better my grade
I wan go oversea like singapore to work with my uncle

I hope i can work different field, other than accounting field
it sounds weird, but i hope to get the job with my interest
No longer interest..when i go audit firm to collect questionaire

they are not really friendly
i don't want to be like them..their clothes, behavior and working environment is suck　
Ｉ　ｗａｎｔ　ｔｏ　ｔｒａｖｅｌ　ａｒｏｕｎｄ　ｔｈｅ　ｗｏｒｌｄ

a new nostalgia in this year

no one could expect my new semester will change tremendously..
It just a small matter become big material thing
talk is easy but action to be done is hard to me

it much more tougher..
i hear some accusation made by friend ,my own friend, friend sister n another friend
i was really upset to hear that ..because it was not only written on facebook, n some tell orally through phone..i do really mind my face value on that time
it was so called public harassment because make such accussation.
no doubt in facebook..it was partially true or wrong
For honestly, i don't really make the thing which describe facebook

i feel disappointed.. i am so embarrassed to see u or talk to u
I'm so sorry the thing that i made
I admit it was really wrong on what i doI don't really know what to do...instead of avoiding myself frm you
When someone is down, i make myself to approach to god

even your friend send sms to me to say sorry, i'm not able to forgive
something my heart is hard to let it forget it
because my friend do not understand my attitude and myself|
for both party, i stay with you for one semester... you do not know my character, attitude that i grown up naturally to mix with you
my heart is so sad until you do not even trust me...it take me time to cure my heart...
I don't know when can i start or stop the friendship
i assume that my friendship is a fiasco..If given a chance to repair back, it may be or may not be good as last time that we have
If i apologize on what you did, it does not change the facts, there could be gap for trust and to start the friendship is there..when can i narrow down the gap???


that's a problem for me...the impact to my heart
I have friend, some friend are doing wrong
1)i can easily forgive n forget
2)some are really disappointed , still can talk n make friend again but not trustworthy person..cakap kosong sahaja.. juz partially ignore n k..u ignore because u think that he/she might be useful for onedays
3)some u are not even want to talk her/him because u trust her/him too much ..take time to forgive her/him
4)i want to make friendship with them after some matter , i seldom talk to her because i noe her character so well because u might fear that 1 day..what they will do it again for you
5)worst thing if i dn even talk to them, because no intention...leave a deep impact to u
whenever u go, i won't ignore

i dn noe u might fall for which categories


**I might be glad to listen ur explanation last thursday...but i am doubtful on my friendship going on...it's quite awkward to take action to rectify this friendship..i'm so upset for this matter for few weeks
How about next, whether my friendship can be continued or back just like the last time???

My parent matter is quite worry..one thing settle, another coming..OMG , non stop sueing case..It was actually small matter, why rich people her boss love to make trouble with my father..
My sister and i hope he will continue do his job ..if not , he cannot support my sis education and so on
I hope my parent will cover soon..i admit my father is a coward, love to run away..i do not wish to be like him oneday

my dream is weird

why my dream is always like that??? i hope that it would NOT happen in real life
OF COURSE, I DO NOT WISH TO but I'M certain for my consequences

Accept failure is a must..
I LOST INSPIRE
I LOST dreaM
I LOST MY CONFIDENT
I 'M USELESS
I'M STUPID
I"M BRAINLESS
I SHUT DOWN MYSELF NOT TO SOCIALIZE

DO I HAVE PROBLEM OR SOCIETY???
WHICH ONE IS THROWING THE STONE FIRST???

1 HOW LONG CAN I KNOW??
2 HOW LONG CAN I LIVE????
3 HOW LONG CAN I STAND THE PATIENCE?
4 HOW LONG CAN I BE INDEPENDENCE??
5 HOW LONG CAN I STOP CURIOUS ?
6 HOW LONG CAN I GET ANSWER ?
7 HOW LONG CAN I WAIT?

8 HOW LONG CAN I STOP SACRIFY ??
9 HOW LONG CAN I STOP BUSY LIFESTYLE??
10 HOW LONG CAN I STOP TIRED??
11 HOW LONG CAN I BE RICH ??
12 HOW LONG CAN I BE HAPPY FOR MY LIFE??
13 HOW LONG CAN I ENJOY MY LIFE??
14 HOW LONG CAN I HAVE MY OWN THING THAT I DEMAND??
15 HOW LONG CAN I STOP PROCASTINATING ??
16 HOW LONG CAN I STOP TO BE FAILURE??
17 HOW LONG CAN I WAIT ??
18 HOW LONG CAN I GET MY WISH?

19 HOW LONG IS MY JOURNEY CAN I GET MY DREAM??
20 HOW LONG CAN I STOP MY BAD HABIT
21 HOW LONG IS MY JOURNEY TO GO TO BE CARRIER WOMAN TO ACHIEVE ANYTHING IN MY LIFE??
22 HOW LONG CAN I STOP WORRYING EVERYTHING???

THERE ARE 22 QUESTIONS FOR HOW LONG...???
I 'M SO SURE FOR THE AGE OF 22 YEAR OLD GIRL FOR THIS YEAR GOING TO BE ....COULD NOT GET ANYTHING YET .....

ALL I NEED TO GET IS ANSWER
hOWEVER,

THE ANSWER IS ALWAYS DISAPPONITING
BREAK THE PROMISE FOR MYSELF TO OTHERS
HOPELESS TO DEPEND OTHERS N LOSS MY CONFIDENT TO MYSELF

I'M JUST ORDINARY PERSON . I ONLY WAN TO HEAR THAT ANSWER
LIFE IS SO SHORT...ANYTHING CAN BE HAPPEND AND UNPREDICTABLE
I'M TIRED FOR MY LIFE..my WISH ALWAYS DOES NOT COME TRUE

i'm worried my result since my holiday

i'm not sure how to face my result ....i have trauma and experience on my result since the last short semester...when i see the result. i could not accept the reality
reality is still reality even though reality is the mean to me
speechless when see the reality
it's hard to me accept, my 1st time in my life get D in my result
i almost fainted...the next result or last sem result, i was so anxious
i hope i can pass but i don't faith on myself in this semesterthe subject on this semester was really pretty hard
this semester is totally much more tougher than over how many semester
some1 could get pass 2 in gpa, it was totally an awesome
i wana to salute them
i can't sleep and eat very welli'm really scared, want to cry hell of my resultevery nite can't sleep due to this resultwhen the fear came, it become stress
every1 wonder rainbow here mean hope can pass flying colour, not only flying color, expect a new life can bring me to go on with my result, i juz wan to get my ptptn loan to go on my study...
no ptptn mean can't continue study
i m really scared for that moment....no one can help me , only god
every human made mistake or wish, refer back to god to gv us hope



hope the god will bless me n my result always,happy wesak day
na mo oh ni tuo fo!!!!

eating in copy cat food sushi king restaurant at kampar

menu table in a collection in real sushi
Outside view of sushi king

YY order is already serve , yeah....
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take photo with the other table and outside view yeah

oposite table is quite nice and it really family dining table
so many menu different set of model, come to order too




the food is not standardized with sushi king, somemore it's expensive with the imposed with sales and service tax... customer hope this food is cheaper than sushi king food but yet expensive.
the taste is exactly the same
However. it's just memorize able day with my friend after my audit exam , yeah!!!

taking too long made decision yee shan


Process of making order.... What food we want to eat, yee shan are asking yy

take photo with my self in Vegas, it's quite SS yeah



my order come 1st , hotdog burger




Fish cheese burger....
finally, yee shan order chicken stick, potatoes and some healthy vegetable

celebrate after exam, explore a new adventure in food in kampar

1stly, before exam and study week that time, my friend and i were so craving for studying a long period during study week after we had seen friend facebook picture. All the while,after a lesson at Uni, then we just stay a long period at Uni, Human being always hungry, if we are hungry, we just sit down and eat some canteen food. Canteen are eatable at a reasonable price.
We are lazy to go outside to eat at dinner time. sometime, we go outside and eat ''Pan mian'' at Wu Ming Zhi '' Cafe. The name is quite unique and meaning of this in Chinese is Meaningless Cafe.The boss there is quite friendly, making jokes with us and every student too.
I learn something in OB that time, It is something vividly in my mind, if it's importance to maintain customer relationship because there is customer when there is business.
It can sustain long run business if we have non stop incoming customer and also who are loyal to the bran product.
Of course, In business world, Customer is always right. But of
course, as a customer, we shall not find trouble to the employee.Both person are doing some duty of care , act like what are the reason to be.
Those waitress and employee who act badly, shall learn the skill and duty of care in that ''Wu Ming Zhi'' cafe. It's the time to management people to learn this practice ,not only customer and employee as well.
If employee are not doing duty, it will get affected on reputation.
Oh ya, I went ''Vegas'' restaurant which is well known food is '' Large burger ''. The descriptive for that food in ''Vegas '' is ''Original American Dinner''.


It show what American Past time had usually eaten on dinner time. That why OBama shadow picture it's on the wall.


This burger is so high , The price is about RM 11.90. It's quite delicious and full.
Of course, my capacity of my stomach cannot eat alone if i had finish this food because it has different layer of food. i share this food with my friend.Beside, i had diet to be a slightly thin. ...yeah, i cannot eat a lot.
I mean for this


My friend order other food too, it quite sumptuous and delicious and yummy




My hotdog bread, with some mayonis sos and potato chips

ah luan order hehe, which call Obama Burger, quite large and a lot too, hehe

Stress on exam

angry and fierce cat in Utar
My friend say i study crazily and overstress..do u know hw much stress that i bear ...
do u know hw much pain that i was crying so far....i become panic stricken when i do not know anything, i got phobia last time when i get result in IT management. I was trying my effort. Do u know if i were fail, i can't continue my study...
Too much thing afraid....thin?? it all become stressful to me....
My friend who really understand me why i become like that........Do u think i want this stress???
situation and environment is a factor. My father is recently sick and even some day could not work because his leg pain. i was worried when i see this indication.
My friend who do not understand me , please don't say sth which is out of sense....i know i was stupid enough i was studying quite hard........... Normally, i won't express my worry because i don't want people know but u make me say sth which make me angry n out of mind. U are forcing me to say sth which i don't like to say.....

this is what i learned from my best friend, even though she was in my photo friend, we still contact but seldom see each other, but we are so busy.... i know i 'm not important at all... meaningless to anyone except my family... i will keep on striving for success for my family... Even if no one else wants me, my family does

If my friend has this kind of friend, she will disregard this kind of friend who are brainless and who still in a wonderland. Imagine in this situation, how do u feel???
shuT uP your mouth shout if you do know anything, i don't like myself to be compared......
...that's all...

memories b4 the day my best friend went to KL work

memories i can bring her so far through the day i was in melaka when
4 people hanging out still remain in my heart. In 2009 same year but seasoned with different period, i got four different hairstyle and people as well.
F4 take photo in dataran stage....
People will keep on pace with changing environment including the change of world, fashion, time, attitude, thinking and anytime we cannot predict if we compare last time.
that time, we are not afraid about the fat in pizza,but my friend felicia kho is practicing to diet . this is last time we take photo during her birthday...yeah
if compare this time, from high cholesterol food to low cholesterol food.
people taste, perspective , thinking and view (including personal grooming, style changing and any aspects as well could be seasoned in different period.
that why . we are changing kenny rogers to eat healthy.....everything has change but friendship and relationship has not changed. This is what i mention and emphasize...hopefully, we last forever. Relationship need certain time to give and take. We can have a friend in the world but could not find good friend to understand us.
friendship could not be selfish to each other, but we always consult each other,lend some shoulder to my friend when facing problem. I treat my friend good if my friend treat us good. Sometime scarifies to help my friend could make my friend happy. One little effort to help could bring my friend happy. A action is indeed a big help. In life, we are full a dream and may expect some hope. A friend could be symbiosis in future and present. That's why we may want friend help us some day.

in conclusion. i do not regard any friend who are self-fished extremely and do not care people feeling, helpless in doing everything. this type of friend don't know how to describe from friends to enemy....it quite sucks to hear that...actually , i do not wan mention but some1 revoke me to say some1 ....anyway, juz ignore it


This is what we had order at Kenny Rogers Restaurant


My meal yummy yummy
Pei fen's sumptuous meal
Delicious Italy style spaghetti from Felicia Kho

i know her since form 1 in secondary school. The strange thing is we from enemy be a good friend. This relationship since form 3 . When i recalled back, it's too strange . I don't know why we were arguing since form 3 . When i back to my hometwn last few weeks, i don't forget myself to celebrate her birthday. Pei fen and I brought her to Kenny Rogers. Pei fen was always driver among our friend. It was grateful to have this friend to bring us....hehe
Guess what, bring her to Kenny Rogers again. this week is about Kenny Rogers.
It was so coincidence everyone is dieting ...hehe
It 's on right time , right place n right action that every1 is dieting. It was really just IN time...gothca hehe
we glad to hear that...yoyo

Love the food in Kenny Rogers

i am just like same with the health conscious consumer , attracted by advertisement which stated that less sugar, less salt...for those people who like to diet, people like me would prefer less oily. Eat protein is better than carbohydrate .......these were food that i had t o order


three types taste of muffin flavour
a new set chicken which is cheesy meal......
new set menu :new tangy meal chicken is like a bit of curry and combination original chicken....eat chicken is better than something which contain carbonhidrate
a view from Kenny Rogers restaurant
when u enter kenny Rogers Restaurant, no doubt you feel like you are entering a very classical, with the combination of old english style with western restaurant ..........no forget , the two CD is a significant represent more classic and uniqueness of Kenny Rogers

hometown i miss u n my friend

christmas view in the stage shopping complex....dataran pahlawan melaka mall...a lot of place we could take nice photo actually
it's rather difficult take photo with ourself
it's similiar like the scene in korean movie, the scene is like korean coffee shop
this is an order from us, yummy, variety and tasty of dessert
menu from this pink berry coffee shop, have a look some icecream...my friend is promoting...yeah
this is valley to go this green field,after shopping and juz sit there, there is a coffee shop around nearby after u feel some exhausted shopping
the most history place in malacca is red house, no1 will forget these scene red house built by holland people..yeah, u can see a lot tourist people in malacca. i bet you, you cannot even see tourist in Kamapar,i.e. boring town....
this is the place i was hanging with my friend after going shopping with my friend...see the big field to relax with my mind...to broaden my mind, free myself from hectic lifestyle. This place is not far from Alma Matter, the high school that i study before